Lovebird

Little Pieces of Me

Little Pieces of Me

I am not sure I am a people’s person, but my mantra has always been to give people a safe space to vent. While it has been easy to let people vent, I never do. It takes everything in me to open up to people, especially the people around me. When I was falling apart, no one knew. I had a smile on my face and pain in my heart. I realize now that it was a defense mechanism. So when I healed and left, that was when I could talk about it. Imagine the surprise when my friends and family found out. Today I am writing about this because it just dawned on me that I no longer hide. Maybe I was hiding because I was hiding the pain and the irony. Now I am happy. I take walks for so long and am never tired. I’m always smiling, even when the things in my life aren’t going exactly as they should. I used to love nature, but lately it’s more than just loving it. Would you look at me now, listening to a thousand years and smiling through them? I underestimated what healing would do because it has given me much more than I thought it would. It has given me joy, peace, and hope. Today I know that even my wildest dream will come true because I needed help, and that is all the strength I needed to grow. Look at me now. I connect to the glow even in the dark. I have someone who makes me laugh like crazy. I don’t take for granted this space that I am in. I may not always be here because nobody knows what tomorrow will bring, and therefore I want to enjoy this. I want to breathe in and feel the depth of my lungs. I want to care for my mental health so much that I know what to keep and what to let go of. As a parent who chose intentional parenting, I hope to influence future generations in the most positive way possible. It’s time to shine all the little pieces of me. It’s time to live the dream because right here, right now, I am happy. And before I forget, this is an answered prayer. Which is how I know that everything I have is because of his grace.

    Leave a Reply